How my journey began

I'm Megan Guzman, Midwife of the Embodied Soul

This is the language that pleases my soul, however talking to you I might say I’m an Embodiment Coach, Mystic, Spiritual Healer, Earth Keeper, Soul Doula. All expressions of my soul’s work.

I support people in the sacred work of tending to their soul. This is deeply healing and transformational work that has not been a straight path, but an ever deepening journey toward my heart and soul. My work is deeply rooted in ancient wisdom and love, wisdom our body knows and carries. Wisdom, I’ve also had the honor of receiving in from those in my life.

SACRED INTENTION

I hold my story as sacred. What I’m sharing here is from a place of deep love, knowing my story may spark threads from your story, for we are all on this journey through life and are more connected in our experiences than we may often feel.

I’m sharing parts of my journey, my experiences in a hope to inspire the possibilities that open when we choose to honor our story and experiences as sacred and move from a belief we matter, we are deeply loved and whole, and we’re here for a reason, and needed in love.

The journey is about remembering who we are, for we are not broken or in need of fixing, we are whole and go through periods of forgetting our roots and our truth and love within. 

MY BEGINNING: (The beginning, language our body knows and holds)

Since I came into this world I had a fire in my soul, I felt it in my core, this fire driving and leading me. This fire didn't always have a way to speak or be expressed, it acted as an inner guiding light. I was largely closed off from the world, kept together by this fire.

I come from a loving family where I was told I was loved and shown love in the ways my family knew. My parents loved each other since they were 11 Years old, becoming pen pals after meeting in the summer where their fathers were attending military summer training. I was conceived from that love and entered this world. I am the answered prayers of my parents and ancestors. I know I’m here for a reason and my gifts and light are needed at this time. 

My parents conceived 2 miracles at that time for I am a twin. I came into being in this world connected deeply with another soul, my twin sister.

There are moments in time that have the power to shift everything. These moments shape the very thread of our lives, unconsciously present in how we move through life.

One of those early moments in my life was when my parents found out they were having twins. At that moment my body took in the great love and fear that came with finding out there's two bundles of joy on the way and all the care and support needed to nurture us both. My sensitive being took on that I couldn’t be too much, the fear of too much brought fear into my being, I also took on a mothering role in my twin relationship, for it was me and her in the womb, I didn’t know me apart from her. We grew side by side, being nurtured and cared for in my mothers womb.

Another such moment was my birth. I experienced a powerful loss at birth, losing the safety and nurturance of being with my twin, protected in the womb. As great a celebration as birth is, the loss and grief was just as powerful and was stored in my body all these years until I met it with tenderness and love.

My twin and I had a strong bond, our family said we even had our own language we used to communicate with one another. We were developing a twin identity, the world saw us as the twins, Megan and Jennifer. We were two yet bound as one. The twin bond is extremely powerful, our souls are deeply connected. The early attachments are also deeply powerful and created powerful feelings that found their place in my body to stay until I met them with support, nurturance, and great tenderness and love. 

As a deeply connected soul, bonded and attached with a powerful love and fear, I experienced a harsh and violent world that was unsafe. My inner world was far safer. I lived holding two strands: a deeply powerful love and a deeply powerful fear. 

I’ve experienced the period from conception (even earlier) to 2-3 years old as the most powerful time in development and healing. That's when my foundation was being formed and without a strong foundation rooted in love, there was a shakiness to life, which I experienced as extreme shyness and unexplainable fear.

MY JOURNEY (The middle journey of deepening love and soul fire eruption)

In 2008 I married my husband, our fires burned together, I felt we were a quiet, yet powerful force, fueled by our deep love for one another. Our son Ayden was born in 2010 and our daughter Ellie was born in 2017 and both additions added their own light to our fire.

In 2019 this fire within me became louder. Then one day everything stirring beneath the surface erupted with the words this is not okay, my voice awakened, the veil cracked. I asserted myself and opened deeper to my fire.

In 2020, with my voice awakened stronger and speaking my truth one courageous moment after the next, I felt my fire strengthen me in the chaos of the year.  I never saw myself as a being a healer, but 2020 showed me the way I view things is different from others. I no longer wanted to just get by, I wanted to honor my values and show that through my actions. I saw myself as a high achiever, I earned my engineering degree and was at a medical device company for 5 years and then found myself wanting something different for my life and finding coaching. I took the leap because I felt it deep inside this was the path for me, I was made for something more. I wondered where working hard and being a high achiever was leading me and why was I feeling like something was missing from my life. I wanted to help others and be able to lift others up.

Then at the end of the year my ground broke beneath my feet and I went up in flames, consumed by it. I broke open, my whole life flashing through my mind. I went into the underworld and experienced a spiritual awakening, I became so filled with love and such deep sorrows. The only option was being with the intense waves as they moved through, the doing of life halted.

That was another powerful moment that opened the way to a powerful surge that’s been uprooting my whole life.

There were many loving protectors that showed up all through my life, internal and external, keeping me safe until the veil broke and the most powerful love shined through.

In 2021 I started out the year in the depths of the underworld, the seed to my new growth being planted.

In this time I was called to Catherine Liggett's work of Empathic Witnessing and entering into a divine therapy, a healing relationship rooted in love. For 3 years I received support from her and the community she nurtured dearly. This work changed my life, with her divine guidance the layers around my heart, lovingly protecting me, cracked open. With this rebirth, I saw the world through eyes of love and compassion, everything was more beautiful than I could have imagined, heaven was on Earth, my felt senses took in the magic all around me.

This was a time of ripening and beauty in my life. I was coaching clients, just finishing up my health and life coaching certification and starting my business. I was moving through so many fears and feeling the aliveness of facing my fears and bringing more of myself to be seen. My soul continued calling through for deeper support and growth and I entered into an apprenticeship with Catherine to become a certified Empathic Witnessing practitioner, the healing method that changed my life. I was able to take clients through this deeply healing method and be a part of someone else's healing journey.

My light was shining through like never before, I knew to my core, this was the work I was meant to be in.

And then, my energy shifted and as I listened to my soul's call I was led inward, time and time again. I was getting sick whenever my energy was focused outward toward others, toward growing my business. My body knew what I needed, and after resisting I began leaning in and trusting where I was being led for 2022. 

In 2022 I went deeper into the unknowns of the underworld and woke up the seed to my new growth for germination. I was in touch with my fire and at home making my way back to the surface with this new life. 2022 was the year I finally came home and rooted in my love within, my embodied soul, here in this body, on the Earth.

I never felt all here before, I never experienced such a profound sense of being here, in connection with my embodied soul. The path of the year led me to the support and care I needed to move through the tremendous amount of grief, shame, and fear I was carrying, weighing heavily on me. I received in the loving care of family, friends, practitioners, and soul connections that fed and tended to my pain and joys.

Some of the uncomfortable truths I became aware of and faced with deepening support were that I had experienced:

• emotional neglect

• social anxiety

• depression

• deep loneliness

• sexual trauma

• religious trauma

• developmental trauma

• twin attachment trauma

Those are some of the labels that allowed me to face the truths of my lived experiences. I don’t hold onto any of these labels too tightly, however they allow for greater understanding and love in communicating and moving through the pain and hurt.

I love how these two quotes speak to this so beautifully:

“Trauma is not what happens to us, but what we hold inside in the absence of an empathic witness.” Peter A. Levine.

“Understanding is love’s other name. If you don’t understand, you can’t love.” Thich Nhat Hanh.

Sacred Relationships

Since the end of 2020, I've engaged in a sacred apprenticeship with God, a relationship I cherish and hold dear. 

I've been learning how to come home to the love within me and enter into connection with the sacredness of all life.

 I've been practicing living by a deep trust of being spirit led, returning to an intimate trust of my body's wisdom, an embodied trust.

Something most precious to me now is that I entered into an apprenticeship with Mother Earth, our Sacred Mother, I'm in a relationship like never before, I’ve returned home to her.

This was a missing piece for me, it connected the spiritual and earthly.

I'm returning to right relationship with myself, nature, and God.

I'm committed to restoring balance and harmony within and all around me. 

I'm committed to no longer being at war with myself and being in a loving, honoring relationship. 

I'm committed to being in community with nature, with the beautiful trees, plants, and animals.

I'm committed to honoring these sacred relationships and embodying it, living it more and more.

I’m owning my light.

I’m owning my sovereignty.

I’m owning my worth.

I believe I matter, I feel it to my core.

I believe we all belong with our fullness. 

I’m owning my place as a sacred being of light.

I'm shining my light and living from this truth. For I believe this is also true for you dear loving soul. 

This is where my passion and gifts lie:

In bringing in love and an empathic witness to all the areas of life and development that feel separate or apart. 

Remembering our wholeness.

Remembering who we are. 

Coming back home to ourselves and our love within, that connects us back to all of life and the sacredness of it all.

Will you join me in shining your light and living from your truth through your soul’s expression?

The NOW

Family has been my priority on my journey. The call for more of me to come through and be seen led me back to schooling to pursue engineering. The maths and sciences always fascinated me, it was a language I took in and understood well. Another call for more of me to come through and be seen led me to my current fascination in coaching and the healing arts. It's a language and world that builds on my foundations in engineering so beautifully. For they share the same heart, supporting our life here, allowing for ease and flow. With the right principles and foundations you're able to move through challenges, build or rebuild foundations and grow in ever expanding ways.

There's so many possibilities when you're moving with the flow of life and love and have the tools and resources to move through challenges and receive support and safety along the journey. Life becomes a beautiful adventure into the unknown. It's a place of wonder and awe where you get to co-create with spirit. 

I've been untangling the roots of fear with love and allowing growth in those areas. This is the journey of miracles and embracing my fullness and the beauty of life. I get to show up more alive and in respect and honor for all my parts. I get to shine brightly as I move through the ever changing cycles, spiraling, deepening into love. Allowing space for my soul’s expression to be felt and seen in this world. Inviting others into the same. I feel blessed to be doing something I love.

After 16 months of intensive focus and healing around the 9 Sacred Feminine Rites of Passage with Sacred Feminine Embodiment work, I’ve spiraled back to the truth of how much is in our body, our subconscious is accessed through and with the body. When we are disconnected from the body, the language of connection and relationship, love and belonging are so different. An embodied definition of love is almost not able to be understood without the ability to feel in the body.

My life has taken me on a journey of remembering my sacred power and eternal love. In the Red Sea, the last day of my Sacred pilgrimage through Egypt I was embraced by the sacred waters and reunited with the truth of all, the connection of all and the words sacred power and eternal love Sparked in my body what this journey had reclaimed in me and what I was expanding and awakening in others.

Love makes the impossible possible. That’s what love does, that’s what love has always done. For without love, we wouldn’t go after the impossible and see the magic of it opening up a whole new world of miracles. For where there is love, there are miracles. Love has the power to break through what otherwise seemed impossible. Love has always been the path forward through the unknown. It’s always been the path of the soul. For when we remember we are love, we open to the miracle we are and that all life is. The magic has always been within. The eyes of the heart shine through.

This is my journey of awakening my voice and remembering who I am.

Will you join me? I would be honored to support you in your journey.